First of all, I think I have to apologise to Pinky;I told her not to tell anyone, but here I am blogging.. because Ireally need a listening ear and today.. she departed with me..
Its a sad story.. I only know about their relationship 2weeks later after they started. Pinkydidn’t told me anything, I guess she’s damn good at hiding.. I alreadysuspected things a few weeks ago, but I can’t suspect her without agood reason; this might hurt our relationship..
I saw the guy inher friendster and I was like.. WTF, why she called him dear in thepicture.. so I took a bus down to persue the truth.. She told meeverything.. I assumed that she would never lie to me again, or atleast do things and let me know but she didn’t change.. She’s a goodliar
Yeap she hide it for 2weeks and more than 1 month (coz theguy started wooing her 1 month ago).. She’s a good liar? I don’t know..I just don’t like to be lied to.. She’s saying the guy might not becompatible with her because of the age and he’s a smoker.. ARghh yes Ihate it, she said she will never fell in love with a smoker, and thereshe is with 1.. No doubt women are big liars.. She’s willing to makechanges for him, not me.. what am I all along I thought.. So all alongshe was just wasting my time?
She doesn’t have the intention ofkeeping a "best-friend" relationship with me I guess, I think sheblocked me on her MSN.. anyway, I HAVE NO WISH OF GIVING IT UP!! That’sall I can say..
All I can do now, is sing "shou fang kai" by lishen jie, and try to create a bad image of her in my mind.. anyway shedon’t really bother how I am feeling now.. she just go on to work andsee her new Boyfriend..
Can I get her back? I wish I could, ifshe would say something delightful, I would do things I will never dojust to get her back (say me silly but this is truth) I lost everythingin an instance.. My inspiration to excel and pursue a good career isall gone..
Pinky,if you are reading.. please tell me if I can get you back please.. Idon’t want to lose in a battle without even fighting and you tell me tobackoff..
I had to act so calmly to wish them happiness.. deepinside my shattering heart, who would ever heal me back? A 4yearsrelationship is nothing compared to 2weeks afterall.. ya she proved tome she got suitors and I need to buck up.. or for now, I am late and Iam gona lose her forever..