Alot of people can’t differentiate the difference between a LIKE and a LOVE..

Alright.. before you know you truly love a girl, perhaps you should ask yourself these questions:

• Is it just a crush? (Because crush will only last temporarily)
• Do you like her? (Accept her everything and dont expect her to change?)
• Why you like her? (There’s bound to be a reason for every single thing that can sparkle this chemistry)
• Will you really take care of her? (If you wanna be taken care ofby a girl, you are a weakling then.., girls expect more from our side!)
• Can you live without her? (then she’s not the one for sure..)
• Does her smile makes your day? (Or is it just her physical?)
• Is she your idol? (an idol doesn’t ly in your heart forever..)

Sometimes I really wonder.. When everyone has feelings, does every single guy out there feels likeme? A simple smile from any good looking girl can make us go crazy when we’re unattached? Sometimes it mislead us tofurther things but you should always know that when someone smiles atyou, its just a courtesy afterall, so don’t expect anythingmuch.. the moment you think of something further, you’re worsethan a dead meat.. blacker than a pile of shit..

Sounds like a pretty boring Christmas this year.. Usually in Singapore its a holiday season between November to December (2 months) and now I have to attend school and it really sucks though Christmas is on my 1 week term-break holiday but there’s nothing I can do much except going to the nearby island and get some stuffs or stay on mainland and party.. Haven’t hear anything about partying/counting down this year from my friends, maybe Christmas ain’t really meant for me to celebrate..

I’ve walked around the past few days and without much friends, I think I would be getting these items myself soon:

An analog watch ($150)
A perfume (Hugo Boss Energise.., $83 for the larger size)
A new sling bag maybe?
Some wrist accessories?
A bowl? haha.. just kidding…

Waiting for an email for the past 4hours was definitely a challenge to me.. an e-mail that I told myself would change nothing of my present life and yet, I choose to wait either for an reply or a silent night.

I just receive the reply and it has changed nothing, except 1 thing.. at least I know she isn’t avoiding me at all and I don’t have to, and at least we are friends when we say we are.

Perhaps 6months ago I shouldn’t have said that awful word to her but everything’s too late and I just got to keep myself busy in my single life but YET staying financially stable..

Went to Andy’s chalet last night and it rocks; finally get to meetup with alot of secondary school friends who I lost contact with (didn’t get their contact number though because I don’t organise meetings?) and ya, its fun..

Before Zuxin and I went to the chalet, we went to walk around and shop for his gifts and we finally got something very unique for his birthday present; a HAMPER… (who the hell receives a christmas hamper filled with chocolate bars on his birthday? Trying answering Andy next time! LOL!)

Actually we expected quite a number of girls to be attending his chalet but ended up it came a few shortlisted as "chio bu" also… good job Andy.. and Andy was busy being entertained by Benjamin who kept on asking him to drink.. LOL..

Ya, my friendship with Benjamin started to get better I guess, I finally initiated the chat to him and he replied with alittle bit of "entertaining" me but I guess its the first step towards the sucess of resuming a very good friendship..

I didn;t sleep much because I went to walk around the resort hoping that lights would be on and there would be wild girls in the barbeque pit disturbing one another but it was rather a peaceful night and I could feel the tranquility (damn so sad..)

Then Zuxin and I went back home to change and got ready for the NE student forum and just when I got ready, he changed his mind and he’s still at home.. Lucky for me, I was already on my way and thanks Peter for remembering there’s a NE forum today and he should be accompanying me.. Seeing so many people on the bus, I know its a grand NE talk I would probably get to see her.. Then during the NE forum, I really saw her and my mind really went so.. I really want to tell her how much I miss her and stuffs like that, but I CAN’T DO IT.. I lack of the courage, I lost the confidence, worse of all, I lost her.. Being afraid of being rejected, I chose to be quiet..

Just came back from jogging.. I really hope that things will turn better between me and her..

After weeks of struggle, I finally went down to my router agent office today (peter drove me there, thanks dude!) and when I entered the office, I saw a notice saying "Please take note that the average waiting time for a customer is 45mins".. ofcourse I did the usual way of exclaiming (which is WTF!) and then, I called Peter and told him to go back school without me first..

Then a technician came out, and he gave me an exchange -_-.. I thought the average waiting is 45mins? Its retarded -_- whats the notice for? Immediately hoping that Peter isn’t too far away, I rang him again and he came back for me..

I was hoping that the technician would troubleshoot that router infront of me, I want an absolute answer to the problem of my router but they didn’t.. nevermind I was in a hurry already and panicking because Peter’s gona be late for his lesson.. and finally, I can leave the place..

And Peter drove back to school so I went to watch Chicken Little in my lab.. its a lame and boring story-line cartoon although its funny..

Then, Pat Binglin Bert and Me went to bowl again and start to pwn.. I wish I could master that spinning bowl skill.. its looks cool, but Alvin said its better to throw accurately than spinning.. I think I should just go for accuracy for now..