Remember my post 6days ago which I mentioned about Jacqueline Ong and how she has enlightened me about the motivation and confidence that was in me?
I guess I found the right word to describe them; I lost my proudness.
I went to the library to borrow a book about how to improve confidence and how to manipulate confidence and then I realised what I had lost was not confidence; it was my proudness.
I like the feeling of being proud, even as I walk along the streets.. as long as I could keep my eyes parrallel to the ground level, I feel proud.. It makes my day happier..
Skills that other people did not possess or my work is completed on time are things that makes me feel proud.. And why is it that feeling proud isn’t good? People are jealous and tend to make nuisance out of your proudness, taking your proudness away from you either by saying things you could never do whereas they can, or doing things that can indirectly hurt your proudness.
No doubt, its a weak point which is easy to be see by other people, and working around it ain’t easy.
I love the feeling and being confidence as it makes my battle with the day much more easier and smoother and I shouldn’t give a shit about what others are commenting… All I can say is that its not so easy?
Being proud takes quality; only when you have the quality, you deserve a praise then you have the rights to be proud over it and there should be nothing wrong with it. Being humble is when you have the quality yet you prefer to be low-profile or lack of confidence in your work. Too much of proudness will mean arrogant, and too much of humble will mean lack-of-confident.. I decide it anyway.
Being proud and humble are 2 different things, I like to be proud yet might seem to be humble about my achievements; who isn’t?