I just wanna put some of my feelings here right now, feeling so depressed and confused.

Someone that once affected my life passed away; it is my ex's grandpa who we greet him as 'ye-ye'.  He had problems hearing that's why he has a hearing-aid on his ear most of the time.  The first thing I do everytime when I reach her house is to greet him as I would see him in the living room watching the television.  At times he would invite me to watch the television with him or have some food etc.  Those days when he needed a helping hand to aid him with his movement, I shown no hesistation and gave him mine hands.  Having him by the dining table was fun too as he would laugh at my ex's young sisters who were fighting for food,  sometimes he would say things that were of no link to the topics we were discussing.

I missed him for the past 2 years.  I couldn't visit him; not because I wasn't allowed to but I didn't dare to. 

He'll always be remembered because he played a part in my life, and hopefully if there are really 5 people who I should meet in Heaven, he should be 1.