Sometimes I really wonder the deferment of my enlistment to National Service, whether it's a good thing or a bad thing.

I really hate to spend time like that, rotting everyday away until the servicing date, 7 Oct but it seems like there's nothing else I could do other than making use of the remaining time to go out more often with my friends who had/just had entered the NS.

I want to spend my time well, but the late nights I've been having has stopped me from doing so, and being like this is such a pain.  

The good thing: I have a longer time to relax before going in (which is un-necessary as I can't wait to get it)

The bad thing: All of my friends have served except me. (definitely doesn't fit into their conversation much of the time now.) 

God damn time Wasting. 

During this period of time, got myself into more complexed thoughts, more troubles. 

It's really such a pain but who's there to understand me. =/