phusion – life in shadow.

(ps twitpic dont allow me to hotlink to the actual larger image)

This is KARMA.  When I try to eat every single food that comes near me because I saw what other poorer people couldn’t have.  I ate more.

GREED.  And now karma hits me by making me fat and disgusting.  Time to stop my munches and real exercises.  If my friends could kick the habit of smoking, I can kick the habit to enjoying good food as well!

YES I CAN.  Leave a comment to encourage me please, thanks.

UPDATE: I USED TO BE FIT:

Yeap thats me in the bright orange shorts. Oh how much I missed all these night cyclings =/

This is a Micheal Moore movie, America’s most hated film director.  Bought a pair of tickets to watch this movie with Pinky, thinking that it would be a romantic show; so much for the ‘A Love Story’ at the back of title.  Ironically, we missed the word Capitalism (but search my vocabulary, its not even in my dictionary)  So the first 15minutes of the show hypnotised Pinky to her dreams, sleeping comfortably on my shoulder.  Not wanting to spend my money to sleep in a theater, I encouraged myself to stay awake throughout the session and Im so proud of it.

If you’re not a very political or patriotic person, the movie isn’t right for you in the first place.  I don’t even care about the election in my nation, why should I care about the states, moreover it doesn’t really concern us?  But you’re so damn wrong!

The movie gives a good perspective on how Capitalism has affected the US for the past 8 years under the management of ‘you-know-who’, whos been making the Rich people richer and the poor people poorer by taking away everything they have, irregardless of their situation.  That was obviously something that wasnt shown in the media, did it?  And how companies benefited profited from the employees who have died by buying insurance on their behalf and stating themselves as beneficiary.

And oh, this made me recall why people would vote for the President, Mr Barack Obama, one who emphasized on CHANGE during his debates for election.  They have been on the down side for the past 8 years and someone should end the deed, not continuing it.  The election results flashed in the movie was also something that wasnt showed on our screens.  People actually CRIED because of the president they voted for has won!

In Sing ka pore, FAT HOPE.  Why would you cry?  I dont even remembering there was 2 parties fighting for the position?  Even if there was a Good and Bad president to choose from, with the white collars in the cabinet, do you think the so-called bad president can have things done his way?  Unless the white changes to become the black, then that will be a worrying point.

I bet many of us who surfs the net frequently might skip typing ‘www.’ for any website and straight away key in the domain that we are looking for (e.g. google.com.sg instead of www.google.com.sg).  It saves time and it is very specific and somehow, of common sense that it should redirect google.com.sg to www.google.com.sg and vice versa because this is how we, the geeks surf the net.

The web hosting company, Net Venture, apparently neglected the importance of DNS or maybe, they forgot to modify the DNS entries accordingly and thus led to loss suffered by the actual company, Comfort DelGro Bus.  Can you imagine the amount of traffic going into the website looking for chartered buses but ended up in the website of Net Venture webhosting company?  And if that the users are not geeks and the website seems redundant to them, they would have left the website and never ever come back again.

I visit upon my alma mater facebook fan page and came upon this video someone uploaded on his youtube:

Watching the video really made me teared.  This is a sort of farewell video done by my fellow school mates (I supposed?)  And yea, I remember back in 2002 we don’t have a cameraphone yet? Did we?  Else we would have tons of mischievous photos too!

Looking back at the video, I saw myself in that green uniform, a period when I wanted to give up studying so much until my friends encouraged me and pulled me back.  We mugged at late nights striving to do better in N and O levels.  Then got into the Polytechnic, and then some got to the workforce while some continued to study.

I’m really feeling proud, now.

So, if you think you’re alittle too old to start planning your personal finance or too young to do so, you’re WRONG.  Its not age restricted, as long as you think that you want to grow your money instead of letting it out.

A recent talk that I had went to with @mintyboi in School regarding your finance and controlling it makes us realise that it might be something of common sense but we seem to always take those for granted..  Thus Im here to share alittle bit of what the School’s Investment club has taught us that day:

Your money should be divided properly into 3 baskets; SSI (Spending, Saving and Investment).  These 3 names has got something to do with our finance!

Spending, is a basket that leaks.  Put a limit there or else your finance will leak out non-stop.
Saving, is a basket that saves you when you need help (like a piggybank), only use when neccessary.
Investment, is a basket that helps you to grow your money so that your money can be saved from inflation and things like that..

The investment club, however, did not really provide a good stand on our side as a student.  They mentioned more about shares and taking risks than protecting assets.

I like their 3 basket theory, but at the same time, I think there should be a basket for Insurance so that it can help us out when we need the money (e.g. Hospitalisation, Illness, Accidents).  These may not be neccessary for students but I took up this insurance thingy because as our age gets older, we need to get protected from all these!  I feel that an insurance can be an investment if “touchwood” you did kena something bad.

I am trying to plan my own finance now and I wanted to do that ever since I was 16 BUT the thing is the temptations of indulgence are hard to resist!  Indulgence such as eating good food or going for buffets, enjoying tea breaks, playing and singing with friends.

No wonder my finance are all in the leaking basket!

The joice of watching one’s newborn is really very amazing.  I visited my girlfriend’s cousin last night because his wife has just given birth to a baby, their first child, and thus we were exciting to see the baby.

I could still clearly remember the time when my mum gave birth to my pretty little sister when I was 6years old and she wasn’t around me to keep me accompany.  She was having a tough time trying to balance housework, taking care of my and my brother and my grand parents.  My dad was busy with his work as usual and didn’t really pay much attention to her.  

Yeah, I must say being pregnant for a lady is tough, tougher than guys job who is supposed to satisfy all the wifes demands and to work at the same time.  

I used to make fun of my friends who had ‘misfired’ or my female friends who always think that the day for them to have baby won’t come.   Tada, barely 24 and their freedom locked up.

A message was given to me when I saw the innocent life.  Damn.  Im not ready to raise any kid.  Im not fucking ready to teach him/her the proper things in life, yet.  I can’t help them save money for their education when I have so many ambitions not realised.  I can’t provide them; they’ll fucking starve and die.  Yeah, probably all those were my excuses for not having a child until Im at least 28 (with a stable job and a wife; married wife and most of my childish thoughts claimed).  I know I can’t commit to that innocent life nor sacrifising my nights of freedom.

My day will come, but not anytime near now; it will only be 3-4years from now. 

And the first word that will come out from his mouth will not be mom/dad, it will be fuck. LOL! just a joke =x

Quoted:
AhSang (real name 黃嬿璘 Huang YanLin), who became famous for the song 葉子 [Ye Zi] [Leaves], passed away from breast cancer at around 8:30 Saturday morning at 新店慈濟醫院 XinDian Hospital; she was 34. She never said a word about her illness; she did not share the burden of her illness with her friends. The news of her passing shocked and upset those who knew her; she had originally planned to marry her American-Born Chinese boyfriend this year and move to the US. This wish can now never come true.

This is a very sad news for a talented singer. May she R.I.P. god bless.

Hi smokers.  This post has got some denial against smokers thus if you’re feeling unfair, its meant the way it is.

First of all, yes, Im a social smoker, too.  Like you smokers, I used to smoke when I was in school, with my friends, superiors at work and nightlife.  I used it as a socialising tool like how you guys used facebook in order to have some connection with some friends; I used it as a destressing tool so that I feel better each time the methol goes smoothly into my throat and the sensation of smoking after eating is like peeing immediately after drinking.  Okay, I lied.  I still smoke sometimes and thats why Im called a social smoker.

What has encouraged me to write this post and create more awareness is because everytime I saw young kids out there smoking, thinking the adults did that too and they should do that too and not thinking about the consequences.  Witnessing the older ones smoking outside the shopping centers, I did my personal reflection as to why I should write this post to DISCOURAGE my friends from smoking.  Its just a simple word; HEALTH.  Health is something wealth can’t buy.  Think about this:

• For you ladies, do you wanna have cervical cancer and cause your vaginal to be rotten or sealed?
• Flat breast?   Think about your remaining days with your black lungs.
• Bald head?  Is hat the thing you want to wear until your last breath?
• Bad breath?  I hate the smokers who sit besides me on train.  those regular smokers stinks to the CORE. HEAR ME!
• Rather die as a smoker than a passive smoker? think about the neighbourhood that has banned regular smokers.  we’re smokefree in most areas now and we won’t die as a passive smoker if we don’t go near smokers.  
• Do your parents even know about you smoking? aren’t you guilty to reach home in that disgusting cigarette smell even your parents do not question you?  Or you just blame it on some pubs or friends?
• So you’ve got the moolahs and time, you want to spend on chemotherapying?  why not spend it in message spas and facial salons? Get into some real decent hobby and pay for it!
• Your lifespan don’t last over 60.  Face it. you’ll never see your grand children grow up!
• Its an irresponsible behaviour.  Your escape by smoking is an addition to the pain you will suffer in time to come and your family members are the real ones who are affected because they will lose you.

We all know whats right and whats wrong, but whats stopping us?  The Singapore Stress or socialising tool!?  But this is not a reason to smoke, its just an excuse.  Thats for me for smoking and writing an anti-smoking post. *headshot*

Viola, Im going  back to facebooking.

Update: for you ladies, I just saw on wikipedia that the symptons for cervical cancer:

The early stages of cervical cancer may be completely asymptomatic.^[1][8] Vaginal bleeding, contact bleeding or (rarely) a vaginal mass may indicate the presence of malignancy. Also, moderate pain during sexual intercourse and vaginal discharge are symptoms of cervical cancer. In advanced disease, metastases may be present in the abdomen, lungs or elsewhere.

Symptoms of advanced cervical cancer may include: loss of appetite, weight loss, fatigue, pelvic pain, back pain, leg pain, single swollen leg, heavy bleeding from the vagina, leaking of urine or faeces from the vagina,^[9] and bone fractures.

Sounds gross and sick. go PICTURE IT and drill in your heads!

Like what we always do for the past century, meetups with relatives and gossip, talk, share, gamble.  Its a good occasion for the lost bonds to rekindle and letting go of what had happened the past year, reflect and start planning for this rocky pavement of the upcoming year.  Like what Adeline had written in her blog, this year is gona be really tough for the OXes (yeah I was born in the year of OX) and looking at the prediction of the zodiacs’ life this year, tiger, dragon and dog are on the higher summit (my dad, mum and bro) respectively.  I really hope my family would continue to prosper in their business and ofcoz, stay healthy because without health, wealth is mere.

So I brought my mum and sis out last night to Loyang Tua Pek Gong (like what I did for the past few years).  We visit the temple on wee hours to avoid the unncessary crowd and thick smokes.  What had me amazed this year was that the temple had 6 real cows in the temple, as though it was some ritual but it was really saddening to see the animals get trapped in this small place and gets stared at.  There was 1 cow that looked so angry and helpless when I stared at her nonstop for 5minutes.  I was trying to mesmerise her, thats why. LOL.

With an addition of a family member, Biscuit (my dog), my family seems more bonded than the last time.  We had to leave the dog behind in the house because we don’t want to be tied to her when we’re having our family gathering.  Then, my dad always want to go home early instead of staying at our relative house too long unlike last time, when he could stay there until 1-2am.  Its definitely better now =)  I wanna thank biscuit so much for putting my family together again.  My sis, mum and dad now talks more and goes out more often as well.  For the past year, my family relationship has improved tremendously.

On my side, my true friends seem to have a very big gap with me.. it was accumulative effect; when there is a gap, it only gets bigger instead of smaller.  I was really busy with both my school and personal life.  I had to juggle between my poor academic results and my hall’s commitment for my school.  And for personal committments, I have a new family member (biscuit) that I have to be home some times to play with her and my beloved girlfriend, i’m attached.  But still, on the much brighter side, I have met more people in school, earn more friends and still stay happy like previously before army.  However, I still  really miss those slacking days.

So, if you haven’t start reflecting, start thinking on what you’ve really done to make yourself proud and what are your upcoming plans on the rocky paths this coming year and leave a comment here =).

Last but not least,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR READERS!

Manage to get my hands to try on my cousin’s Sony A-350 DSLR and GuitarHero: Worldtour.  I kick ass, like totally.  Not actually, I only know how to play guitar and percussions with Medium difficulty.  Well, like what other tubers would say, Practice always makes perfect!

Thank god its going to be over soon.  And I know myself this 1month holiday won’t be a long time till I start mugging like an animal again:

so gota treasure this time when I’m having the holidays.  And a really bad news is that everytime I come out of the examination hall, I feel devastated.  Its like, oh my god what was I writing on the paper?  Do I really know anything about the subject?  My peers are like doing very well by the time they came out of the exam hall comparing answers, thus I ask myself each time where was the confident I once had during my Poly?

I knew the reason.  Procrastinations.

And here’s something I drew on the monthly planner Pinky has given to me 2 months ago to encourage me on time management:

Dont worry dear, your money was well spent =).